ok, I am needing some advice. I have been out of the blogging for a while which I was okay with doing.
Things in my relationship have improved quite a bit. I am still somewhat of a basket case but I am doing my absolute best. Our communication has been great and our feelings stronger than ever. I seriously love this girl quite a bit. We have had some very special moments that have kept us going.
This past week was rough for me. After two back to back trips (and being away from her), being tired, and careless, I had a bad fall. I lost all desire to resist. It was not fun. But I called my sponsor the next day and planned how to discuss things wiht the girlfriend. We ended up having a fantastic Friday and Saturday. I just didn't find a convenient time to bring it up (is it ever convenient?) So it wasn't until Sunday night that I relayed what had happened. It brought alot of tears and frustration. From me. And not so much from her. This girl is so solid. She sees the big picture. She is willing to take a chance on me bc she knows my potential and knows how hard I am working at this recovery. Needless to say it was a long conversation. But ended with good feelings. I have so much love for her. I can hardly believe that I am able to feel this way. First time in my life.
Now to my question, How does she support me in recovery?? What can/should she do??
I am super uneasy about how involved she gets. I am going to recovery meetings once a week. I've been doing that since before I met her. I am working the steps with a sponsor. I have guys I call. I take inventories when I run into trouble. I surrender. I meet with the bishop. But she wants to be apart of the team. Not a coach, but in the huddle. (more Maurice talk).
What do you women do?? Not do?? Should I ask anything from her at all??
I let her know what day I am on and I report any struggles or losses that i had (preferrably that same day). I want to be open and honest and not have all the lies and secrets. She even mentioned the other day how she might be interested in doing the steps with me, but do them for her own insecurities (isn't she awesome?)
anyway, just throwing it out there
Warrior
