I just read the latest post by Andrew on lust.
I totally agree with him on this. I feel for the first time in my life I am actually experiencing recovery. Abstinence and sobriety are certainly great but recovery is our true objective. Not even mere repentance. I have repented of this sin. I have received my temple recommend. I obey the law of chastity. But I am still working on recovery. It is hard to accept but it is no different for a cancer survivor.
Sure, I have to avoid porn or anything stimulating but more importantly I need to be aware of any mood shift, any lusting, any "drinking" as we call it. no sense being a 'dry drunk.' I have to surrender my desire for anything that is taking from someone else. I can't look at a woman and "take." I can't watch that commercial when I should look away. I have to give it ALL up. Not keep a part.
I am winning this battle lately. Not because I am any more capable than I was before. I am winning becasue I am tapping into the true sources of power: God and the fellowship of addicts in recovery.
I shared my first step inventory last Thursday. I read every detail of it. They all know what I have done. And that has given me alot of strength. I made a stronger bond with the group. I don't have to fight sex/lust/porn addiction alone anymore. Nor am I going to. I have a great sponsor too who points out what I wouldn't have seen before. Recovery can be attained if we seek it in the right way.
Day 73 today. ONE. DAY. AT. A. TIME.
Hey I just wanted to let you know that I think you personally contributed to Pete starting a blog. Thanks for what you do.
ReplyDeleteJane's right - you did contribute to my starting a blog. I've really appreciated your insights, and felt to share some of my own. Here's to recovery...
ReplyDeleteI loved the post -- this is really what my husband is starting to 'get'. In fact, he was printing off that Rowboats article to take to our Bishop, since he's told our Bishop that he needs to start talking about getting to the root of things, get rid of the lust, rather than just focusing on porn abstinence . . .
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